Happy Birthday to Me


So many years I thought my birthmother died during childbirth. On my birthday, more than other days, I felt guilty. My existence took her life.
When I learned that she hadn’t died in childbirth, it took a while for the reality to sink in. She relinquished me. Whether by choice or not, she went on living a life without me in it.
Now, on my birthday, I think about my birthmother and wonder if she thought about me every year on this day in August.

When do you think about your birth family the most? Are there triggers?

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4 responses to “Happy Birthday to Me

  1. She thinks about you every single day….especially on your birthday. ❤ I'm a birthmother and I know this is true.

  2. Hi, I just started up my blog “InsideAnAdopteesBrain” and I wanted to say that I have loved reading your blog over these past couple of years.

    I completely feel for you when you said, “She relinquished me. Whether by choice or not, she went on living a life without me in it.” There is so much emotion tied into that little sentence

    I don’t know if my birth-mother is alive or not, but I do think about her often.

  3. Pingback: My brain is spinning. | InsideAnAdopteesBrain

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